Friday marked the start of recess week!!!

sent jamie off at the airport, sobsobs.

wonder whether anyone will send me off when i go for exchange?

i want to go on exchange, NOW.

okay keep dreaming.

 

quite a boring saturday.

paid off my sleep debt (somewhat)

i love sleeping!!

 

not so much of studying. because i suck at it.

boo you school.

not very smart, leh. cannnnot make it.

how to class part??? i cannot!!!

fart i can (never before though)

 

actually i have a lot of deep thoughts running through my brain now

do not be deceived by the nonsense i typed.

 

It's out with the old, in with the new! Goodbye skies of gray, Hello skies of blue!

Anyway, apart from Aries (who just confirmed her readership, haha), i'm not too sure who else reads this space but whoever you are, I'm sure I know who you are and you know what I've been going through. So yeah, just a space for me to rant as usual, and process the thoughts through my (possibly very tiny) brain.

SOOOOOO, 23rd November, the day STATS 151 ended!!! I used to joke/ still will joke that Stats 151 is numerically larger than Stats 101 by 50. so it's urh, harder. The paper was really tough :( I thought i was prepared, but i guess the paper proved me wrong.  SinceIi relied mostly on eye power, I think i could have practiced a lot more, but if I had done so, I would have compromised my well-being. So i didn't.

On hindsight now, it would have been academically beneficial, especially with repeated questions that i unfortunately failed to answer. Tried to keep calm during the paper but honestly i couldn't stop my hands from shaking as i keyed in the values in the calculatorS. Yes, i used two, somewhat simultaneously. Trying hard not to think about those silly mistakes right now and also..

I'm trying hard not to expect anything, especially from a paper that i screwed up so badly.

I'm trying hard not to feel obliged to get a B just so my GPA will be decent

I'm trying hard not to be so concerned about my grades and be more concerned about living life.

Then again, it isn't "I'm not expecting.. I don't feel obliged nor is it I'm not concerned.. and am more concerned.."

I'm trying and maybe i should try harder. I will try harder if there's a resolution i have to make by today.

Sometimes i think i must treat myself better, indulge in something of some sorts? I don't know, next update would include a list of Things I Indulge in, or so i hope. oh wait, exams will be over, haha. Maybe next semester?

 

Writing is quite therapeutic actually, i've neglected this space for far too long and I think it's about time to get started again. Not really writing virtually about virtually every outing i had like in the past, but more of typing down my thoughts. It's going to be really boring, without any pictures and all, but i guess that's what my tumblr/facebook is for. Too much memories have been stored here. 

 

As for living life, I'm really quite unsure about my career path, especially with what i want to do. For now, life is uninteresting and i don't seem to have a particular flair for anything. Quite demoralising?

However, I do know what I want my quality of life to be like and it includes a lot of materialistic wants. It should come as no surprise that my main reason as to why i chose to remain where i am right now is the supposed financial prospects it comes attached with. Watching a video of Steve Jobs giving a speech on how we should be living life and that at the end of the day, doing what you're interested in will make all the difference was not very uplifting but instead leaving me with a heavy heart. This is very much in line with what everyone is saying- casting aside all your doubts and things like that. People however, are afraid of change. I am. I lack the guts to do something so radical in my opinion and more importantly, i'm still lost myself, not knowing what i really like to do. What if i transfer and end up equally unhappy/ regret my choice in time to come? I don't really like studying actually. So maybe it's not the courses but just me. I don't feel the excitement about acquiring knowledge. Anyway someone once told me: "I always see you taking down notes all the time but why is it that you never class part?" I mean, i don't know whether it's because I can't think on my feet quick enough or is it because i'm too dense? It also made me realised that I'm not learning to my fullest potential because I'm not "thinking effectively" and this includes questioning the statements or ideas or whatever. Note to self to revolutionize learning style. Haha, easier said than done.

 

Oh, actually while typing, i realised... maybe I will like the finance modules? It's not really something you question, those steps you learn how to evaluate companies and all? quite.. systematic? haha omg, i don't even know what finance modules enail, but i guess that's a start. A competitive road, though. Grr and not a road economics students can easily embark on. 

 

That aside, I just want to say, I'm really thankful one paper is over. No longer will I have to pore over the textbook/notes/formula sheet or lug the textbook around (which i hardly use). Till next post, likely on friday. Happiest day of my life, ever. For now, I shall "indulge" in MFE. 

Inspiration in the middle!!! and Friends who have made my school life so much more bearable :)

(eh Aries you too, but you mia)

 

With that, I shall let go and let God.

xoxo 

i just did a mini spring cleaning.
i really hate silver fishes !!! they're like so slimy and gross and disgusting.
may this weblog serve to remind me, NEVER LEAVE PAPERS LYING AROUND

so i was clearing some of my jc shit.
i kept math, cos i might need it, esp differentiation and integration.
(DAMMIT UNIS, CALL ME, MAIL ME !!! )

found my geog handy dandy book, the one that helped me secure an A !!! WAAAAHOOOO!
gona read it later, maybe (to bore myself to sleep, or not)

i kept chemistry because.. i can't bear to throw it away
BUT DAMN, I DID THE WORST FOR CHEM.
I HATE CHUUUUU.
the only chemistry i like now, is probably the chemistry i share between peeple *aww*

so anyway, work at uss has been awesome.
please tell me if you're coming to the park, spice up my work life.
the only reason why i'm still here is because i'm a lounge girl tomorrow, a waterworld lounge girl.
of course, the spring cleaning thing kept me up. not a wise decision to do it but the damage is done!
especially to my face.
stupid late nights.
kena designer bags under my eyes and ugly face.

oh wells,
next in line to be cleaned out will be my closet.
but that'll take awhile.. the mere thought sends shivers down, not only my spine but my entire back :O
even ME with the most severe OCD (exaggerating) dare not take up the challenge.

but basically, after work, i was going home with yan ning and kailing
BAM
eh? *hot air rushes in*
you see, like any other cool person, we headed for the cool back seats
but apparently it wasn't that cool anymore when the entire glass panel behind us fell

AND smashed into smithereens!!!
like i seriously saw it crashing, not into anyone/ any car, thankfully.

so there, i was still happily seated there until it dawned upon me that my life was possibly in peril
HEHE but i was mega excited.
wowww.. snapping pictures and all.
okay that's all.

good night/ good morning.

p.s, GO TO AWFULLY CHOCOLATE TO EAT CAKES !!!
SO GOOD!!!

yep, another update. but not what you friends expect.
just something to make yall laugh when you're bored!!!

because this space should only be visited when bored, unless if you're not normuh

i'm such a thoughtful friend
so here, THINGS TO DO IN A LIFT


1)CRACK open your bag, peer Inside and ask “Got enough air
in there?”

2) STAND silent and motionless in the corner facing the wall without getting
off.

3) WHEN arriving at your floor, grunt and strain to yank the doors open,
then act as if you’re embarrassed when they open themselves.

4) GREET everyone with a warm handshake and ask him or her to call you
Admiral.

5) MEOW occasionally.

6) STARE At another passenger for a while. Then announce in horror: “You’re
one of THEM” – and back away slowly

7) SAY -DING at each floor.

8) SAY “I wonder what all these do?” And push all the buttons.

9) MAKE explosion noises when someone presses a button.

10) STARE, grinning at another passenger for a while, then announce: “I have
new socks on.”

11) WHEN the elevator is silent, look around and ask: “Is that your beeper?”

12) TRY to make personal calls on the emergency phone.

13) DRAW a little square on the floor with chalk and announce to the other
passengers: “This is my personal space.”

14) WHEN there’s only one other person in the elevator, tap them on the
shoulder, then pretend it wasn’t you.

15) PUSH the buttons and pretend they give you a shock. Smile, and go back
for more.

16) ASK if you can push the button for other people but push the wrong ones.

17) HOLD the doors open and say you’re waiting for your friend. After a
while, let the doors close and say “Hi Greg, How’s your day been?”

18) DROP a pen and wail until someone reaches to help pick it up, then
scream: “That’s mine!”

19) BRING a camera and take pictures of everyone in the lift.

20) PRETEND you’re a flight attendant and review emergency procedures and
exits with the Passengers.

21) SWAT at flies that don’t exist.

22) CALL out “Group hug” then enforce it.

23) When the lift is going down scream “we’re gonna die”

SO FRIENDS, I HOPE YOU GUYS KILLED SOME TIME.
PLEASE CALL ME AND LET'S TAKE A LIFT TOGETHER SOON


PISSS OUTTTT!

Xanga, a thing of the past.
perhaps not many are checking out this space anymore, except for Elaine and Weiru  
remembering why i got xanga, i must admit the emoticons still do have their appeal  
so cute onez!

anyhoo, i remember i was blogging at home.
then i had to go out, so i shut down my lappy, much to my horror that my post was well, obviously..
NOT PUBLISHED

almost had to keel myself.

i uploaded photos
guess i'll get down to re-writing that very post plus a summary of 2009 filled with memorable events
stay tuned folks!
i mean, weiru and elaine.

this actually feels quite nice
shall attempt to do it more often.
writing nonsense.
well not really but its like i'm talking to myself a little.
I KNOW!
I'll upload pictures from tumblr here too.
those i really really like

 

PISS OUTT!!!

i guess, this is it.
the end is drawing near.

what i really have to do right now is to totally get into the studying mood.
not much blogging these days.
more of tumblr-ing because tumblr is awesome
sorry xanga. i'll love you once again on the 23rd of Nov.
well, so much has happened within this month or like, weeks or whatever.

i'm not even sure whether i can pinpoint my exact feelings at that point of time with regards to outings and what-nots.
but i'm quite sure i was happy during those moments.
i do make it a point to experience joy whenever i can.
hahaha, even if it means doing retarded things.
because when i'm older i can't afford to be retarded anymore T.T

anyway,
its late and i'm not sleeping. sometimes you're tired but staying up is like, habitual.
which isn't very good..
all these personal expectations weighing down, oh when will i ever learn?
will i ever be satisfied ?
and its not like i'm even doing anything substantial.
what is wrong with me ?

all these questions with not an answer in sight.
with that, good night.