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In The Midst of As.

Tue, 17 Nov 2009 02:07:53 GMT

i suppose i'll never feel this way again.
probably not to such an extent.
or maybe when i'm doing my final year paper...
hrm..

the feeling of not doing as well as expected kinda sucks.
i imagined both scenarios, a perfect score with all As
and then another scenario with AAB after math
and then today after chemistry, maybe an ABB
with econs left tomorrow, i can't help but to imagine BBB
not forgetting my H1s too which are pretty uncertain,
especially for General Paper, which i badly want an A for.

you know how they say, no one cares about your psle grade, your o level grade and your A level grade but just the final degree.
but what if i didn't want that degree in the first place?

i wouldn't say suffering from disappointment twice was very pleasant too.
or maybe i just put way too much pressure on myself to achieve unrealistic scores.
i'm not even defined by my grades but i still feel this way.
sucks to be me.

Despite all these negative thoughts, the only positive one is that - God will make a way.
even where there seems to be no way.
and.. perhaps prayers will be answered and miracles could happen and everything will be A!!!
or at least, getting into a course i desire. or, a course i'm destined for.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 15:53:42 GMT

i guess, this is it.
the end is drawing near.

what i really have to do right now is to totally get into the studying mood.
not much blogging these days.
more of tumblr-ing because tumblr is awesome
sorry xanga. i'll love you once again on the 23rd of Nov.
well, so much has happened within this month or like, weeks or whatever.

i'm not even sure whether i can pinpoint my exact feelings at that point of time with regards to outings and what-nots.
but i'm quite sure i was happy during those moments.
i do make it a point to experience joy whenever i can.
hahaha, even if it means doing retarded things.
because when i'm older i can't afford to be retarded anymore T.T

anyway,
its late and i'm not sleeping. sometimes you're tired but staying up is like, habitual.
which isn't very good..
all these personal expectations weighing down, oh when will i ever learn?
will i ever be satisfied ?
and its not like i'm even doing anything substantial.
what is wrong with me ?

all these questions with not an answer in sight.
with that, good night.

I don't even know your name

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 16:40:36 GMT

i was bored.. chilling out on the site omegle!
i said i was from Singapore, 18

so like, if you're from bamberg, bavaria.
aged 23
who started a conversation with let's get married,
who listens to the bloc party, likes blink 182 and more recently anberlin since we talked about it,
songs like paperthin hymn, a day late so , feel good drag so on...
i'm the one who forgot to save your email address

SORRYYYYY
i didn't mean to break my promise.
i can only remember its trickz_ something something something .de

SIGHHH

Mon, 13 Jul 2009 14:47:47 GMT

Indeed i fared rather badly for mid-years
what can i say manzzzZzz

anyhow, this is getting increasingly on my nerves, disappearing from the xanga scene but totally into tumblr.
www.thefleetingmoment.tumblr.com

go visit and enjoy !
i enjoy myself tremendously whenever i'm tumblring.

mental note to blog about....
OG Outing
Chrislyn's DEP Showcase
NDP Preview
SohMin's Birthday Celebration
Chye's Birthday Celebration

yepyep, then it'll be photospam!!!
with mucho lurve <3

May the Father be with me Forever and Always.

Temporal Revival

Thu, 28 May 2009 13:06:52 GMT

Well, i'm sure not much people are still visiting this site.
after all, it has been quite some time since i last posted...

ahh, i only have myself to blame.
and tumblr
everyone should have a tumblr to keep pretty pictures and inspiring quotes!
oh and school

Mid-Years just ended!
can't say i'll do well.. just pray and hope i'll pass !
hahahaha

so today was a celebration at NYNY's
followed by watching Night at the Museum 2
then Starbucks~
hahaha pictures will be on facebook.
moohahaha.

i wonder when will the facebook craze die out..?
like what happened to friendster.
lol.

Since the day i blogged, much has happened.
i know what i have been doing because i record them down !
hoorah for muah!

geog quiz..

CIP! - Hello Campaign

haha with the mascot
it was indeed hard to be so enthusiastic throughout the day
and mustering the courage to talk to strangers!
wah determination!!!

then it was Tong's Birthday Celebration at Essential Brew!

5 of us! hehe

love my face here.
heh

then a lot of dance practices to prepare for RESTLESS!
another highlight would be glissando!
woohoo
Lidya Andiani Harjadi was awesome!!!
lub dub ! <3

some peekchures..

aggyness!

soopah hairy moustache!

with nathan quite the khoo

and neek!!!

how can i forget LIDYA!!!
whee

looking like a fat pau here though...

zat's all!
for now.

tomorrow i'm going out again
so egggciting!
i love holidays
hehehe

Terms Review

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 12:17:11 GMT

Grades are so very bad.
Failing Chem and Math
not doing well for Economics..

Today is a depressing day indeed

went home straight home after school and took a great long nap,
something i have never done in a long time on normal school days due to the various commitments.
A luxury, i feel.

anyhow, i didn't go for dance on wednesday due to the college Geography Quiz organised by Geog Soc.
quite a nice experience.
hohoho

pictures up next time!
till then...

today, i reward myself with comfort food and television.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 04:47:37 GMT

what a week! or month.
well, it was fun seeing my credits jump by 500 3 times.
haha.

i have never felt so relaxed!
my march holidays were spent heading over to Sohmin's and also studying in my hole.
then it was the much dreaded terms and all the late night studying in attempt to cover all the content required the day before !

wowzie wowwww

nothing significant to blog about
results are not out so i'm still alive and not suicidal.

perhaps the only thing is the celebratory outing with the classymates
watching CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC
which is totally going to my list of favourite movies.

i mean, cute guy, hot accent, haute couture?
WHAT MORE CAN A GIRL ASKKK FOR
(except to star in the movie, i suppose)

so anyway, after geog, the horrid paper, me and gen went to agnes' house and her momsie fetched us to town !

in the car

although claiming we were otw, we couldn't help but go into ZARAHAHAH

so after that we met up with the rest and we proceeded to watch the uber nice moveehhhhh
then after the movie, we had to wait for lidya the sloth.

tralala, coming down the escalata.

so anyhow, we had a lot of time to kill, turning us into instant camwhores

Genny Gen Gen

taking our usual jumpshots, lol

with emo agnes

same bag !

then we decided nuff was nuff and went to shop around
only to settle down to take pictures again

taking a series of "candid" shots. hohoho

and finally the sloth arrived and we took off!
to jeremy's place!

the seemingly shallow but quite deep pool.

at the hut where ants thrive.

catching the sloth

draggin the sloth

a series of unfortunate events.

awww, what a happy picture.

relieving good ol pw memories and the scotch tape was still there, lol

A FOR PW!!!

then the night fell.
after eating a lot of nonsense food we went to basement to have some fun !

rx the crasher

ZATS ALL!

Sunday, March 08, 2009

Sun, 08 Mar 2009 11:19:46 GMT

I MET ED WESTWICK IN MY DREAMS.

HOHHH YEH.

All that i know is i'm breathing, All we can do is keep breathing

Thu, 05 Mar 2009 12:35:35 GMT

the moment of helplessness when i stared blankly at the math paper.
it sucked, really bad.

After school we went to Vivo City to destress.
i mean, it was quite a depressing day

After A levels,
Start and Finish OTH,
Start from last episode of Season 1 of Gossip Girl

Still so long... but i'm dreaming, yeah i'm dreaming.

When i walk down the stairs, i often think what would it be like to fall and roll down.

Monday, March 02, 2009

Mon, 02 Mar 2009 08:18:16 GMT

never ending work to be done
One should not seek perfection.

Dance Camp

Cross Country

Day 1

Day 2

Day 3

Mrt

Harbourfront KFC

Vivo Rooftop

Bridge

Captain Squishyball

Day 4